Work was rather stressful today. I finally made it out at 8:30pm and was home by 9:00pm. Despite the ups and downs today, I didn’t have a single panic attack. In fact I don’t remember the last time I had one. I remember what it was like before I starting taking the meds. Each day I would wake up, tears would fill my eyes. I wished I had just died in my sleep. There was a voice in my head that analyzed the events in my life in real time. I worried that no one liked me, that I was nothing but a burden to those who loved me. Gone are those days, not that I don’t have the occasional moment where the thoughts rush back, but I can handle them now.
Lexapro – 5mg
Wellbutrin – 150mg